inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale…

just a quick short post!

Ich bin auf dem Halbzeit-Tests...

scheint wie von der Zeit verfolgt, kommen Prüfungen, als gäbe es kein Halten oder eine Pause für eine Weile.

immer mit einem Examen am Morgen, jeden Tag, bis zur nächsten Woche.

recht nicht wirklich interessant in der Studie heute, oder mit harten Gefühl es...

Sie nennen es "faul"...!? kein gutes Beispiel! :(

so viel Material von Themen, aber weniger Zeit zum Lernen, und der Mangel an Schlaf verursacht durch nicht schlafen konnte richtig heutzutage eventhough Ich fühle mich so schläfrig zu. :'(

bekam dunkle Ringe unter meinen Augen, die sehen ziemlich / wenig echte jetzt, wie Pandas!

and it is not pretty actually! (=.=")a

sowieso, es gibt etwas, das stört meine Gedanken und meine Familie Geist heute ist.

dieses aussehen sollte wirklich seltsam und ungewöhnliche passiert.

hoffe, dies ist nur ein böser Traum und nicht wirklich in unserer Familie passiert.

sie sieht wirklich anders, im Einklang mit dem Wachstum von ihr, drehte sie sich in jemanden, der wir nicht wirklich wie vor wissen. wird ein Fremder, der seltsame Dinge zu tun. es ist genug, um uns fragen...

was macht ihr jetzt davon? Gibt es jemanden, dass sie belästigt oder erschrecken?

warum dies geschah mit ihr? wer hat sich verändert / verändern sie und machte sie ein schlechter Mensch gerade jetzt aus?

eine andere Störung... Sie ärgerte mich so sehr! wir kümmern uns um Sie immer... was zur Hölle mit euch geschieht? Sie wirklich peinlich uns! X'(

Ich denke es ist Zeit für Sie zu einem Psychologen gehen!

you better be healed!

because we love you so much…!!

wir hoffen wir wenigstens verstehen Sie, gehen von der kleinen Dinge.

wir immer hören Sie manchmal eventhough Sie wollen nicht mit uns reden.

wie kommt man zu verstehen und vertrauen Sie wieder nach einiger dissapointing Dinge, die passiert, wenn Sie immer noch geblendet von etwas oder jemand sein und nicht an uns glauben müssen. zumindest versuche nur zu verstehen, dass wir wirklich lieben und kümmern uns um Sie.

because we are the first and last place to stand after GOD whenever and wherever you are, we are your family. :)

so just told us, your family. i'm pretty sure that it will make you feels better.

don't be afraid, ran into my arms, your family, our family.

being faithful to GOD, und stellen Sie sicher, dass Sie nicht weiter lügen und tun Dinge, die schlecht was Schande für uns als Familie, real family, ever after forever.

okayy… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale…

the best thing which right for me right now is just focus with the mid tests, oder ich dachte an dich giftig zerstört werden…!? X(

Gott, bitte helfen Sie uns... Sie immer wissen, was wir brauchen...

und möge Gott immer segnen mich und meine Familie... \ (^ ^,') /

Welcome 2010!! \(^^)/

such a long long long time that i never update you my pinky piggy bloggie.. :D

and in a short time i realize that how much that i miss you.. hehe. :DD

quite busy and difficult to have a right time and rest time for me for this half year.. fiuhh~

so been busy because of minor project -something like a mini thesis/essay- which is my school's periority for this semester and because of my restaurant, Kimochi that recently opened..

it's been almost 3 month since i, hendy and aldo opened this japanese restaurant.. hopes Kimochi will be a success and famous restaurant at Binus and at Indonesia.. amen. thanks GOD! ;)

even we have had some issues/problems regarding financial and employee, hopefully everything can be resolved over time.. positive thinking~ hohoho. (^^)/

so many things that happened in my life on 2009, quite TOUGHFULL but i have learned that Life's sometimes HARD and UNIMAGINABLE and sometimes we can't consider it's only the trivial thing that we have face, but sometimes we need to be more serious so you can deal with the problems.. and still never forget to say that, "Thanks GOD! I'm So Grateful! :)"

and honestly, sometimes i'm bored with my life.. i'm bored to survive.. and i want other people's life.. but, sometimes i can be so grateful with my life..

life isn't perfect.. which is for me a perfectionist one, that i wish and dream that i would have a perfect life as i want and i need and i imagine..

and because of i already knew that life can't be like what i've dream and imagine about so i always try to make my life's perfect for me and sometimes it works! (^^,)a

and now, i just wanna share what i think these time..

honestly, sometimes i don't just wanna have just best friends but i also want sisters and realtives which is like a best friend who committed because not only the bond of heart but also the bond of blood..

can i..? i always try to open my heart and my arms to give the warmest hug for all people, but why sometimes they just close their hearts for me..?

i truly and sincerely to them.. do they not see it..? :'(

eventhough, i still believe that someday they would see me and understand also know that i really wanted to be near them and they are near me as a partners, best friends and sisters in this life..

and there's which make me even more busy these days is my new job, as a Finance Consultant in one large company engaged in Margin Trading, Forex and Index..

i hope i can be success in this new job and still be able to survive in this new world, for me..

always and will always feell grateful for this life. and because this is my life, nothing to be ashamed to always try and be so ambitious. so, only from that i can always feel and get a new spirit and enthusiasm inside me.

this is my life experience, and i don't wanna be a loser!

usually people only could see us when we are on top and successful, but when we're at the bottom and have a hard life they usually pretend not to see and be blind for it..

i don't want it!

so i still have to live my own life with positive think, good spirit and enthusiasm on GOD's way..

and because my life is my life, not the lives of others then i knew my family and also the LORD is always beside me..

therefore, i am always proud of myself!

in a conclusion, i still believe, be grateful and pious that GOD remains with me always.

although in the past year i have a lot changes and lessons over my life, but in this new year, 2010 will be the year of victory and i will win as a GOD's Child who continue to be the head not the tail, up not down and become the master rather than a slave..

Thank you LORD, for always been and will never leave me and my family..

Me and with all my family was and always be BLESSED by YOU.. \(^^)/

So, even it was late.. but, i wanna say to all of you..

"HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!"

May All of Us can be a Better Person than in the past year! All The BEST for Us.. \(^^)/

..GOD BLESS US ALWAYS..