gonna changes to be a better one!!

hmm, my sweetie bloggie..
miss u much!!
hmm, even i have few times for update u, my sweetie bloggie i felt like so lazy for it..
hee. :D

hmm, and now honestly i have no sense for type anything here..
but, i just wanna share my feelings for this few days..
hmm, now i dunno how and why..
i can't see a different of happiness love and hurt of love..
see, now i am soo of love song..
hoho.

anyhow, i can't describe it in here..
coz it means of my love life..
but, everything on it..
i just think that in LOVE u'll never just got the luckiest subject on that..
whatever love is, sumtimes maybe u will fall then felt the sickness..
but, if we had felt what a true love is..
whatever love is, u will never and won't regret it..
coz there's no more a Forever Happiness..

to the POINT of all these problems i've got..
CONFUSED!!
to choose the best choice of my love life..
i do love him..
but i do felt tired of love of him..
coz he's never gonna change better..
even he's changing but, in another time he'd being like past again..
i can't controlled his emotion..
means of his emotion's not like he punch me or sumthing like that..
but, his mouth and words from there..
a single word of it, if he is in bad mood or laziness will hurt me more and more..
sumtimes, i can't solve it..
but, sumtimes i'll forgot everything that he has said..

hmm, this morning i have broke up with him for many times..
and in this time..
i was so tired of him..
he always promise that he would be more better and maybe the best for me..
but, he still can't controlled his emotions..
and the every words of him was soooooo hurt my heart!!
i can't