inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale…

just a quick short post!

Ich bin auf dem Halbzeit-Tests...

scheint wie von der Zeit verfolgt, kommen Prüfungen, als gäbe es kein Halten oder eine Pause für eine Weile.

immer mit einem Examen am Morgen, jeden Tag, bis zur nächsten Woche.

recht nicht wirklich interessant in der Studie heute, oder mit harten Gefühl es...

Sie nennen es "faul"...!? kein gutes Beispiel! :(

so viel Material von Themen, aber weniger Zeit zum Lernen, und der Mangel an Schlaf verursacht durch nicht schlafen konnte richtig heutzutage eventhough Ich fühle mich so schläfrig zu. :'(

bekam dunkle Ringe unter meinen Augen, die sehen ziemlich / wenig echte jetzt, wie Pandas!

and it is not pretty actually! (=.=")a

sowieso, es gibt etwas, das stört meine Gedanken und meine Familie Geist heute ist.

dieses aussehen sollte wirklich seltsam und ungewöhnliche passiert.

hoffe, dies ist nur ein böser Traum und nicht wirklich in unserer Familie passiert.

sie sieht wirklich anders, im Einklang mit dem Wachstum von ihr, drehte sie sich in jemanden, der wir nicht wirklich wie vor wissen. wird ein Fremder, der seltsame Dinge zu tun. es ist genug, um uns fragen...

was macht ihr jetzt davon? Gibt es jemanden, dass sie belästigt oder erschrecken?

warum dies geschah mit ihr? wer hat sich verändert / verändern sie und machte sie ein schlechter Mensch gerade jetzt aus?

eine andere Störung... Sie ärgerte mich so sehr! wir kümmern uns um Sie immer... was zur Hölle mit euch geschieht? Sie wirklich peinlich uns! X'(

Ich denke es ist Zeit für Sie zu einem Psychologen gehen!

you better be healed!

because we love you so much…!!

wir hoffen wir wenigstens verstehen Sie, gehen von der kleinen Dinge.

wir immer hören Sie manchmal eventhough Sie wollen nicht mit uns reden.

wie kommt man zu verstehen und vertrauen Sie wieder nach einiger dissapointing Dinge, die passiert, wenn Sie immer noch geblendet von etwas oder jemand sein und nicht an uns glauben müssen. zumindest versuche nur zu verstehen, dass wir wirklich lieben und kümmern uns um Sie.

because we are the first and last place to stand after GOD whenever and wherever you are, we are your family. :)

so just told us, your family. i'm pretty sure that it will make you feels better.

don't be afraid, ran into my arms, your family, our family.

being faithful to GOD, und stellen Sie sicher, dass Sie nicht weiter lügen und tun Dinge, die schlecht was Schande für uns als Familie, real family, ever after forever.

okayy… inhale… exhale… inhale… exhale…

the best thing which right for me right now is just focus with the mid tests, oder ich dachte an dich giftig zerstört werden…!? X(

Gott, bitte helfen Sie uns... Sie immer wissen, was wir brauchen...

und möge Gott immer segnen mich und meine Familie... \ (^ ^,') /

Pray for Indonesia... ♥

Just a short post...

#prayforIndonesia ==> It's a hashtag on twitter that describes about the bad things that has happened in Indonesia in this two days.

At its peak occured on today. Mentawai, West Sumatera, which was devastated/rocked by an earthquake and subsequent tsunami. And one of volcanic mountains in Indonesia, Sleman, located on the border of Central Java - Yogyakarta, was erupted at 5.02 PM. Then, there are flooding everywhere in many area of Jakarta.

We can say it is disaster. Nobody knows what will happen later, except GOD.

So, we have to introspect ourselves, care about others and always be grateful for what we already have now. No time for us to be selfish anymore!

"GOD shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death"

This actually happened, in partly also because of our own fault.

This needs action, not just words.

If you really care about your earth, prove it, do it, through your positive actions!

GLOBAL WARMING, you already know that.

Many sources to find out how to keep, to love and preserve our earth.

Don't make our beloved earth sicks again, not anymore.

It's time for us to show and spread our love to our lovely earth...

At last but not least, whatever it is...

Everything that has happened, just #prayforIndonesia right now guys...

I know GOD is watching all over us... May GOD Bless all of Us always...

Pray to your GOD, Pray for your country and this time much more...

Pray for Indonesia.....

p.s : wanna help? you can show one of your sympathy and assistance here!

It Has To Be You ♥

love, a universal expression that can infect anyone, regardless of who you are.

sometimes love can't be imposed, it's up to your own thoughts.

whether it's better be loved than to love, or which is for me better to love and be loved by someone you care of ..

true love isn't selfish, but we should know sometimes it takes fight and struggle of our own.

for me sometimes love is blind, yes. sometimes love isn't selected or elected, love come by itself. without we expected it and without us knowing when and where the feeling of we fall in love with.

but the meaning of love itself can mature us, depends on us to understand what we want to do for our own lives.

without much further ado, a song which i dedicate to my close friends during high school, i hope she realized that the path she has selected now it's wrong.

It Has To Be You ♥

It can’t be if it’s not you

I can’t be without you

It’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this

It’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

Yes because i’m just in love with you

p.s : don't be afraid, because in fact there are many people who cares and loves you.

think clearly, distinguish whether good and bad then what is really best for you.

GOD always be with you, my friend.. ;)

OST Cinderella's Sister - Yesung, Lyric | Drama Korea

oneuldo nae gieogeul ttarahemaeda

i gil kkeuteseo seoseongineun na

dasin bol sudo eomneun niga nareul butjaba

naneun tto i gireul mutneunda

neol bogo sipdago

tto ango sipdago

jeo haneulbomyeo gidohaneun nal

niga animyeon andwae

neo eobsin nan andwae

na ireoke haru handareul tto illyeoneul

na apado joha

nae mam dachyeodo joha nan

geurae nan neo hanaman saranghanikka

na du beon dasineun

bonael su eopdago

na neoreul itgo salsun eopdago

niga animyeon andwae

neo eobsin nan andwae

na ireoke haru handareul tto illyeoneul

na apado joha

nae mam dachyeodo joha nan

geurae nan neo hanaman saranghanikka

nae meongdeun gaseumi

neol chajaorago

sorichyeo bureunda

neon eodinneungeoni

naui moksori deulliji annni

naegeneun

na dasi sarado

myeot beoneul taeeonado

harudo niga eobsi sal su eomneun na

naega jikyeojul saram

naega saranghal saram nan

geurae nan neo hanamyeon chungbunhanikka

neo hanaman saranghanikka

*English*

Today, i wander in my memory

I’m pasing around on the end of this way

You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more

I’m losing my way again

I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more

That i want to see you and hold you more

It can’t be if it’s not you

I can’t be without you

It’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this

It’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

Yes because i’m just in love with you

I cannot send you away one more time

I can’t live without you

It can’t be if it’s not you

I can’t be without you

It’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this

It’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

Yes because i’m just in love with you

My bruised heart

Is screaming to me to find you

Where are you?

Can’t you hear my voice?

To me…

If i live my life again

If i’m born over and over again

I can’t live without you for a day

You’re the one i will keep

You’re the one i will love

I’m… Yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

*Indonesia*

Hari ini, saya berkelana dalam ingatanku

Aku pasing sekitar di ujung jalan ini

Kau masih memegang erat-erat, meskipun saya tidak bisa melihatmu lagi

Aku kehilangan jalan lagi

Aku berdoa ke langit saya ingin melihat Anda terus Anda lebih

Bahwa saya ingin melihat Anda dan terus lebih banyak

Tidak dapat jika itu tidak Anda

Saya tidak bisa tanpa dirimu

Tidak apa-apa kalau aku sakit selama satu hari dan tahun seperti ini

Tidak apa-apa walaupun hatiku sakit

Ya karena aku hanya cinta padamu

Saya tidak bisa mengirim Anda pergi sekali lagi

Saya tidak bisa hidup tanpamu

Itu tidak bisa kalau tidak Anda

Saya tidak bisa tanpa dirimu

Tidak apa-apa kalau aku sakit selama satu hari dan tahun seperti ini

Tidak apa-apa walaupun hatiku sakit

Ya karena aku hanya cinta padamu

Saya memar hati

Adalah berteriak kepada saya untuk menemukan Anda

Dimana kau?

Anda tidak bisa mendengar suara saya?

Saya...

Jika saya menjalani kehidupan saya lagi

Kalau aku lahir lagi dan lagi

Saya tidak bisa hidup tanpa Anda selama sehari

Kaulah saya akan terus

Kaulah saya akan cinta

Aku... Ya karena aku cukup bahagia jika saya bisa bersama Anda.........

do i need any supports..??

Actually i'm not in the mood for blogging nowadays..
Many problems that i've got for these several days.. i just don't wanna give up easily, but i think i don't have any power yet. i'm only a human who has a limit basically such as another human. and now, i am the one who always optimist and never ever pessimist easily becoming the worrywart one who easily smart under heart. i'm in down mood. and today all of my plans was failed. and it's all because of an emotion. emotion of me and emotion of him. and yea emotion doesn't provide and finish the problems yet, although we realize what we've said and what we've done. but, when all of these problems fully completed..?? i can't feel up to these all again.. i lose my power, i lose anything. does anyone cares about me..? dunno about this. but, for nowadays i thought there's no one who cares about me. They didn't ever cheer me up! i need some of words from anyone. it just for cheer me up when i feels down. but, i think maybe i don't have anyone now. as far back as now i am a girls who easily believe in people though to the new people that i newly meet. and now, i just can't trust anyone even they are my family and friends.

Until now, i felt like alone in this world. i never asked anyone for support me or cheer me up but should i asked them..? and why every single people around always support the one who always makes me hurt..? they never known about what happened with it. but, they still support him.. it really makes me hurt! i need the support too.
Throughout my life, when i still a kid i never felt there's someone who always support or standing beside me just for say : "Hey, cheer up! i know u can do it! believe it in your deep heart and GOD." and if i failed, it would be sweet when you say : "Never mind! it's not your fault, it's just not lucky time for you now. i know u have try your best. and Next, it would be your chance to win. Believe it and believe in GOD."
In fact, even now i never got those words.. it's so miserable right..? or it's not..?
hmm, but for me it's really important. cause when i heard someone especially when my parents then my boyfriend and my BFF of course my friends said "their supports" for me, it would be my energy and reserve energy. so when i am in tired and thinking i would lose, i know those words would be works for me even they're not standing beside me and makes my spirit burns and i would be the winner.
after that, they will very very proudfull of me. Unfortunately, i never got it.
When i'm lose, everyone thinks that i am a loser and gave some 'down words' which is really hurts me.
And when i'm win, everyone maybe say "Congratulations" for me, but just it or have another hide plans for me. And try to plump me down, always have a badwill. Then the invidious is when they say "U are not that best and it's just your luck to do that. I think it wouldn't happened to you that easily." Oh My.. They said like that such as they pretend me like i would not be that good.
And yeahh~~ i'm really tired now. Everyone always wanna be the most cared one, but are they ever cares someone like they want it be..? and i know most of all humans is selfish, but do we being that selfish then don't care about anyone though.
some words that i like most, "treat everyone as you want to be treated".

Okay, enough for today (eventhough it's not enough for me to pour my opinions out of these place)..

wish you all have a good day tomorrow.
and for me, it's time for me to praise and worship HIM, my GOD..
..GOD BLESS YOU ALL..