do i need any supports..??

Actually i'm not in the mood for blogging nowadays..
Many problems that i've got for these several days.. i just don't wanna give up easily, but i think i don't have any power yet. i'm only a human who has a limit basically such as another human. and now, i am the one who always optimist and never ever pessimist easily becoming the worrywart one who easily smart under heart. i'm in down mood. and today all of my plans was failed. and it's all because of an emotion. emotion of me and emotion of him. and yea emotion doesn't provide and finish the problems yet, although we realize what we've said and what we've done. but, when all of these problems fully completed..?? i can't feel up to these all again.. i lose my power, i lose anything. does anyone cares about me..? dunno about this. but, for nowadays i thought there's no one who cares about me. They didn't ever cheer me up! i need some of words from anyone. it just for cheer me up when i feels down. but, i think maybe i don't have anyone now. as far back as now i am a girls who easily believe in people though to the new people that i newly meet. and now, i just can't trust anyone even they are my family and friends.

Until now, i felt like alone in this world. i never asked anyone for support me or cheer me up but should i asked them..? and why every single people around always support the one who always makes me hurt..? they never known about what happened with it. but, they still support him.. it really makes me hurt! i need the support too.
Throughout my life, when i still a kid i never felt there's someone who always support or standing beside me just for say : "Hey, cheer up! i know u can do it! believe it in your deep heart and GOD." and if i failed, it would be sweet when you say : "Never mind! it's not your fault, it's just not lucky time for you now. i know u have try your best. and Next, it would be your chance to win. Believe it and believe in GOD."
In fact, even now i never got those words.. it's so miserable right..? or it's not..?
hmm, but for me it's really important. cause when i heard someone especially when my parents then my boyfriend and my BFF of course my friends said "their supports" for me, it would be my energy and reserve energy. so when i am in tired and thinking i would lose, i know those words would be works for me even they're not standing beside me and makes my spirit burns and i would be the winner.
after that, they will very very proudfull of me. Unfortunately, i never got it.
When i'm lose, everyone thinks that i am a loser and gave some 'down words' which is really hurts me.
And when i'm win, everyone maybe say "Congratulations" for me, but just it or have another hide plans for me. And try to plump me down, always have a badwill. Then the invidious is when they say "U are not that best and it's just your luck to do that. I think it wouldn't happened to you that easily." Oh My.. They said like that such as they pretend me like i would not be that good.
And yeahh~~ i'm really tired now. Everyone always wanna be the most cared one, but are they ever cares someone like they want it be..? and i know most of all humans is selfish, but do we being that selfish then don't care about anyone though.
some words that i like most, "treat everyone as you want to be treated".

Okay, enough for today (eventhough it's not enough for me to pour my opinions out of these place)..

wish you all have a good day tomorrow.
and for me, it's time for me to praise and worship HIM, my GOD..
..GOD BLESS YOU ALL..